The Lone Star

I walk the streets here, and you walk the streets there...

Random places I go, at random things I stare...

The smallest of things makes me smile, cause my heart is bare...

This is how it feels to be free, to not give a care...

I am a lone star, not a lone wolf...cause a star shines the brightest when it is alone...

Some days are good, some days are bad, some days I look woebegone...

Some days I am happy, some days I am sad, some days for you I long...

Some days I am sane, some days I am mad, some days I feel like I'm strong...

Life is a dream if you want it to be, and its a nightmare if thats how you see...

The fortuneteller tells me you dont exist, but that is something I refuse to believe...

I wont accept that there is no-one out there as intense, as crazy as me...

Someone who dances to his own tune, who lives life in moments, and is all hassle-free...

The search is once again on...

I put on my boots, and my camera hangs around my neck...

I go wherever life will take me...it has always taken me places...

It never takes me where I want to go, but I always end up wanting where it takes me...

I am alone, but no longer empty, sad but no longer bitter, lovelorn, but not torn...

I am done with all that was, and all that was, is done with me...

Once again I begin to live, once again I love myself immensely, once again I am born...

There's a language which only eyes speak...

If I die tomorrow, I know I would die without any regrets
Without any pain, without any misgivings, without any threats

I had a beautiful life...Life cannot offer you everything you ask for
But it can and does offer you moments, moments which can be magical if you will only open your eyes...
If you will let go of your disappointments, and see everything that's new and waiting to be tried...
The grass on the lawn, the places which never sleep, the smiles around you, the seldom looked-at-star- studded skies...

There is a sense of fortitude in living your life your way
In doing everything you always wanted to do
Talking when you want to talk, and cherishing silence when silence is grace
Walking when you want to walk, standing still when you just want to take in all the charisma of the place...
No questions, no answers, no why's, no might-have-been's
No if-only's, no wishing you were somewhere else, doing something else, with the sun going down in your face...

I am happy just to be lying here in my bed...half sleepy, half dreamy...at mid-day...
Whatever life will bring to me, I will accept it and make something out of it which I will like...
Life is not always good, life is not always rewarding, which is why you can give yourself your own rewards...
Which for me would be running to the coffee shop to get my favourite cookies...
Or flying to Benelux for a heavenly retreat, or buying myself the much awaited super-bike...
I always say, I am not rich, just lucky to be able to afford the things which I value and prize...
Am not a spendthrift, nor am a I thrifty...just a little impulsive and heart-over-head...but also worldly-wise...

I love my life, and wouldnt exchange it with anyone for anything
The biggest reason why I can find my happiness in almost anything and everything around me...
Is because I have already had the best that life could offer me...
And now I see everything I see with a cloud of that happiness in front of my eyes and the taste of it in the blood running in my veins...
It is now an inseparable part of me...an insuperable part of me...
That's what makes me the free-willy that I am, who doesnt care of its summer or winter, spring or autumn, if it thunders or rains...

I still wait for you...because that is what every part of my being is telling me to do...
But I dont put every day in the shredder for that...
It is my way of life...my way of living in this world...my way of extracting the most out of the least, my way of resolving things, of shunning fools...
I dont think that I have lost you for a single minute...
Cause how can I lose something which I never had !

Well I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky...

"When I am alone 
When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone 
When I've lost all care for the things I own 
That's when I miss you, that's when I miss you, that's when I miss you 
You who are my home 
You who are my home 
And here is what I know now 
Here is what I know now 
Goes like this.. 
In your love, my salvation lies ... "

- Lyrics by Alexi Murdoch ( "Orange Sky" )

A life with no regrets..

I know I dont have you with me...and I also know that I might never have you
But the love I have known keeps me happy and makes every new day looked forward to
I can feel it in my blood when I am running
In the sweat, in the heat, in the cold, in the sleepless nights, when my head is swimming
When I come to my beautiful home after many weeks away
When I paint s0mething new, when I click something pretty, when my favourite music I play
When I cram my hard disk with awesome movies
When I relax and fall asleep on the couch in front of the tv
My friends talk to me all the time, they are a blessing, they are everything I have
My head is clearer because of them, they belive in me, they listen to me, no matter what strength I might lack

I know that if I am a stronger, wiser, better person today..
Its because I once knew you, because I let you touch my life,
Because I believe everything you believe in too,
Because you remind me of who I am every day, in every possible way..

And I can never thank God enough for it..
And am sorry to Him for all the times I complained to Him, all the times I cried, all those days in my life that I wasted...bit by bit...

"You're a teaser you turn them on...

...leave them burning and then you're gone ! " ;)

 

~Lyrics by Abba.

The most heavenly food on earth...

Cheesecake ! :D

When the lines begin to blur...

Im living life like a dream you wake up from only once in a while...

Im happy just to be...not caring that the end might be very near..

The day I cease to be happy, I might put an end to it all myself...

I live life not only to see what is, but to feel what is..that is my blessing, that is my curse..

I am afraid sometimes, ofcourse I am, but I dont live in fear...

I hold back everything that might link me to the earth shattering reality..

Because reality is sometimes not so real...

There are things the eye doesnt see, but that doesnt mean they dont exist..

Maybe your heart cries everyday, maybe it doesnt, I know mine does, but you still dont see a single tear...

Life, or something like it

Every act starts with a thought, every thought starts with an idea

Every leaf grows from a stem, every stem grows from a tree

You are the idea and you are the tree

You are the words I write, the life that I see...

You are the one who holds me together, and the one who sets me free...

Alight..

" Tamso ma jyotir gamay..."

From darkness to light...

When I'm lost, I find a way

Darkness cant engulf me anymore

I now live by a divine light every day..

Life is a maze of shades and shadows

But I dont wary or stray,

'Cause God gives me the strength to live by the magic that is love forevermore...

Aglow..

The sun shines in my face

The flowers fill my room

Joy fills my life, the joy I never knew

I am aglow, from the miracle that is you..